Showing posts with label Rachel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Rachel. Show all posts
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May 2009 JASC reunion!

Last night we were lucky enough to have another Boston JASC reunion! Catherine, Colin, Kai, and Giff visited Cambridge. We got Thai food together and strolled by the river...

The six of us by a bridge over the Charles.

Old RT leaders together again!

And of course, as happens when Catherine visits Cambridge, we went to Finale!

Colin being very sophisticated with his espresso and his pinky finger.

One of our elegant desserts (as it turns out, you were not meant to eat the lavender--I found out the hard way).

Kayoko trying to avoid my camera!

DOCTOR GIFF! Yes, he brought his labcoat and stethoscope to dinner...

It was wonderful to see everyone again and have an evening that felt like JASC!
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Thesis.


Unlikely as it has seemed all year--
particularly with the dramatic twists and turns that have characterized my thesis-writing process--
I have printed and turned in a thesis.

It is possible that it is just horrible gibberish,
but I don't care!
At this moment, all that matters
is that my baby, the product of months of misery,
is currently in the department's office,
being filed away to collect dust for years.

Sometime, maybe sometime soon,
I will be willing to examine the process of thesis-writing.
But for now, I am going to lie in bed and allow myself
to
be
happy!
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Rachel's ginger tea

Ginger tea is good for what ails you. I mean it--whatever is wrong, be it nausea, cold, sore throat, malaise, ennui, terminal misanthropy, my ginger tea will cure it. (Okay, I'm still a misanthrope, but at least I am a happy misanthrope with tasty tea.)


Have a non-recipe:
Cut a few slices of fresh ginger root (no, powdered ginger is not okay). I have discovered by experimentation that you can leave the skin on with no ill consequences, which is good, because I am lazy.
Boil them in some water for however long it takes (usually: too long) for the tea to smell delicious and gingery. And look a little yellow.
Pour the tea into mugs (you can even leave the ginger slices in, depending on how strong you want the tea). Squeeze in a few drops of lemon juice. Add honey to taste (by which I mean, add lots of honey, because it is delicious). Stir. Be healed!

Drink it while it's hot, because it becomes vaguely repulsive (to me) when cold.
I read somewhere that you could use rosemary instead of lemon, but why mess with perfection?

I am home (obviously), the only place where I have the luxury of fresh ginger, or a pot to make tea in, or a stove to put the pot on. Bliss.
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The ABCs of despair

Earlier, Nancy and I were exercising our creativity by composing an alphabet of despair.

Allow me to demonstrate.

a is for angst
b is for beatings
c is for cry myself to sleep
d is for despair
e is for ennui
f is for failure
g is for
h is for
i is for
j is for
k is for kvetching
l is for
m is for melancholy
n is for negativity
o is for
p is for paralysis
q is for
r is for
s is for shame
t is for
u is for
v is for
w is for weeping
x is for
y is for
z is for

We've had some brilliant contributions. How many letters can you think of?
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Geography

I was having a conversation with a friend today in which we discussed Mercator projections, cartograms, and other cartographic quirks. To this discussion, I contributed my considerable geographic knowledge.

I present to you:
Rachel's map of the world
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The little things

In this, our darkest moment (by which I mean the last day of reading period), we take pleasure in the little things.

Standing over the radiator vent.
The smell of steeping raspberry tea.
Snow covering the Charles.

This was my view for a while in this latest, interminable paper-writin' marathon:


That is, indeed, the underside of a table in a dark, windowless room. You haven't hit rock bottom until you are actually lying on the floor, too exhausted to stand.

You might think I couldn't possibly produce more self-indulgent whining, but I assure you I can. Just wait until next semester!
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S&M for the Ivory Tower

My parents and grandfather have a comfortable routine at home where they eat dinner, do dishes, watch one episode of a television show on a rented DVD, and head down to bed. It's very homey and companionable.

The only difficulty is in finding a television show that all three of them can watch. My grandfather is a little more deaf than he likes to admit, so it has to either have English subtitles or be blasted at "oh, the poor neighbors"-level volume (usually, both). It can't have any sex in it or it offends my mother and grandfather's sensibilities. A certain level of violence is acceptable, but anything graphic or upsetting is too much for my mother.

One of the sort-of compromises we occasionally watch is Law and Order, and in a recent episode, I found a surprising cultural reference.

Detective Whatever-His-Name was investigating a neuroscientist who became obsessed with a serial killer she was studying, and he searched her apartment for evidence that she was in a sadomasochistic, submissive relationship with him. The evidence he found?

A Yukio Mishima novel, which he called "domination porno for intellectuals."


I love that not only did mainstream American popular culture make a Japanese literature reference, they got it totally right.
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Cambridge/Capitalism

I am sitting in a Starbucks, drinking something extremely warm, sweet, creamy, and minty. It's bustling and warm in here, and their Christmas decorations are still up. The baristas are all cute in girl-next-door ways (the pudgy indie girl, the bespectacled brunette, the delicate-boned middle-aged lady).

This JASCy photo was taken outside the original Starbucks in Seattle! (60th JASC Seattle site wooo.) My dumb grin in this picture is immortalized in JASC publicity materials!

I'm here because I got a Starbucks card as a holiday present (yippee), but I don't think I'll come back. Not because the coffee isn't delicious (it's sooo goood--please see the following YouTube video to experience the full extent of the goodness of this coffee), but because I can't overcome my guilt at knowing that I'm destroying Harvard Square.


This is how good the coffee is. So good.

Harvard Square used to be, and to some extent, still is, a quirky little neighborhood full of weird and stylish stores and cafes. Some of my absolute favorite local fixtures are Little Tibet, which has had a "Going Out of Business" sign up for two years running, Oona's, the trashiest thrift store in the world (I'm going to miss their $2 shirts sooo much), the Garment District (filthy, hideous clothes for $1.50 a pound!), and most of all the Harvard Book Store, with their bargain and remainder basement (this is where at least 50% of my discretionary spending goes).

But there's no question that Harvard Square is changing. Some of the biggest fixtures are now Au Bon Pain, Chipotle, Starbucks, Dunkin Donuts... There's something sad about it. A lot of the charm of Cambridge is in the dives, the student hangouts, the more-pretentious-than-thou cafes, the obscure used bookstores. When we patronize the enormous corporations that move in, we help erase that and turn Cambridge into something indistinguishable from the rest of America.

So no more Starbucks for me. My conscience can't take it. The next time I want to study somewhere with caffeine outside my room, I'm going to Cafe Pamplona. It's on my way to class, so I've walked past it almost every day for three years, but I've never been inside. I'm beginning to think about all the things I'm going to regret not seeing or doing in Cambridge. While I know I'll miss all the funny little shops and students hangouts, I'm sure I won't regret not spending more time in Starbucks.
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I'm stupid.

My stupidity and general mental ineptitude are too vast and all-encompassing to write a brief blog post about. I am incapable of not only abstract thought but also the basic requirements of life. I consider myself lucky that my brain hasn't yet forgotten how to operate my vital functions.

In short, Harvard may have finally destroyed my mind and turned me into this:

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Knitting project: teddy bear!

For Chanukah this year, in the spirit of frugality and global economic collapse, my sister and I are celebrating Homemade Holidays--trying to give as many homemade presents as possible.

For my mother, who loves teddy bears, I made the "bear necessity" pattern from the Family Circle Easy Toys book. The end result is not at all perfect--I'm still a beginner at seaming and stuffing. (Although my seaming has improved a ton, and my new enormous bag of polyfill fibers makes stuffing much easier!) So the bear is a little... misshapen and stupid-looking. But at the very least, he's a big improvement over my previous attempts.

(I'm still debating whether or not to make him the tiny sweater included in the pattern in the book. What do you think? Does this little guy need a sweater?)

And a bonus--I'm a Secret Santa for someone in my orchestra, and one of my gifts is going to be this slightly freaky little frog. He's meant to sit on your bookshelf with his little legs dangling off!
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BurritoQuest 2008

At midnight, some night last week (they all start to blur together in a haze of sleepless misery), I decided that what I needed was a burrito. So I went out to our beloved neighborhood taqueria, the favorite of college students here because it serves delicious Mexican food until 2 A.M. And I documented the process.

Here is my world, on a December midnight:


I live in the Tower. I love looking up and seeing lights on and imagining what sort of people are inside.

Someone decorated a tree in our courtyard with Christmas lights.


Dunster.
The view across the Charles.


An advertising display for Starbucks.
The Garage, home of the cheapest food around.


My favorite! This tree is decorated with lights year round.


Returning home, the halfway-decorated tree in our dining hall.

I'm going to miss this place a lot when I have to leave.
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Illness

I am sitting in the dining hall squeezing lemon into hot water like a grandma. I am sick, which I finally realized after I was still burning hot in my room with the windows open. In Boston. In December.

In some ways I become even more unpleasant when I'm sick (hard to believe it's possible, but it's true, I assure you)--I avoid all human contact, sleep at funny hours, totally abandon any pretense at cleaning my room, and generally become an antisocial hermit. More than usual, that is.

But in a weird way, I kind of enjoy being sick, intensely sleep deprived, or both. It gives my humdrum existence a sort of magical, hallucinatory quality that spices up the dullness of the everyday routine. I have long conversations with myself and entertain myself quite nicely.

The novelty is going to wear off awfully soon, though--hence the hot water and lemon juice.
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Happy holidays

I've been home for Thanksgiving, which has been utter bliss. The food is delicious, the house is so nice, and my family is wonderful! The only noteworthy occurrence has been:

The setting: Thanksgiving evening, the extended family sitting around and pretending to watch some football game on Fox. Fox apparently has this new CGI robot representing the NFL. It looks like this:



My mother: Do you think that's animated, or a real person in a suit?
Rachel: It's animated.
My grandfather: Oh, it's a real person in there.
Rachel: It's definitely animated.
My grandfather: He's a negro.
[silence]
My mother: How can you tell?
My grandfather: The way he moves! [sagely]
[general pandemonium]

The look on my sister's face at this moment can best be described with an emoticon:

Welcome to the holidays at my house!
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"Music is, fundamentally, the art of feeling."

Yesterday, I had one of those once-in-a-lifetime experiences that happen surprisingly, delightfully often here.

My beloved orchestra, the Bach Society Orchestra (a.k.a. BACHSOC), played John Adams's "The Wound-Dresser," a setting of a Walt Whitman poem for baritone and orchestra. Then, Professor Helen Vendler, a scholar of poetry, President Drew Faust, a Civil War historian (and president of our glorious university, and object of my undying love), and John Adams himself oh my god had a casual panel discussion about the piece.

John Adams is possibly the most significant living American composer. His music is just transcendent--if you've heard it, you'll know when I mean when I say it can be like drinking light. It is amazing. I'd actually never listened to Adams before this year (ah, that's an embarrassing revelation), but I've been on something of a binge lately, and he has definitely rocketed up to my twentieth century top ten list.

On a more personal note, he conducted BachSoc back in the day when my father played clarinet in it, and apparently they knew each other and played chamber music together. Incredible!

John Adams impressed me a great deal. His commentary on the piece when he coached us during the dress rehearsal cut right to the heart of the musicality, his speech was peppered with metaphors--I love finding out the images composers use to visualize their music. He spoke just brilliantly on a dozen different things--choosing which verses of a poem to set, the meaning of the vernacular in literature and music, technology in music, etc etc etc...

One of the coolest things I learned is that when he sets a text, he will record himself speaking the line and then consider the rhythm and intonation in natural spoken American English when he puts it to music.

The title of this post is his--and I think it is quite admirable for a man who is obviously so deeply intellectual about music to say that it is "the art of feeling."

I think this reflects his commitment to musically coherent music. I'm not at all one of those bitter classicists who whines about this newfangled modern music what with its minimalism and its atonality and why don't any of these whippersnappers write tunes anymore (and it's not like John Adams is known for his hummable melodies, anyway). So I don't at all believe that music has to be tonal and melodic and pretty to be good. But I do think, as I am led to believe John Adams probably does, that the purpose of music is to stimulate the emotions.

It's notable, I think, that music is unique among art forms for actually being incapable of communicating ideas. (I assume this is somehow a controversial statement, and it is definitely not my own thought--I don't remember where I read it, though...) While adding words or accompanying information certainly allows music to communicate ideas (see: opera), music itself says nothing. You can't teach facts or tell a story through music. Music isn't even really about anything.

If we believe that, then I think we have no choice but to declare music "the art of feeling." Because even without words or historical context, the "Ode to Joy" from Beethoven's 9th Symphony and and the "Dies Irae" from Mozart's Requiem (please excuse the cliché examples) still somehow communicate things that are very different to us. I wish I could speak with some real understanding about this, but I am fundamentally ignorant about music--I can just say that to me, music that succeeds in causing its audience (even an audience as ignorant as I am) to feel is good music.

P.S.: All countless millions of you who asked me, "John Adams, the president?" are philistines and uncultured rubes, so there! (I am mostly kidding. Mostly.)
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My intellectual life

In the course of my rigorous thesis research, I came upon a rare film that, I think, perfectly expresses my current intellectual state:



MY BRAIN HURTS
NO NO NO MY BRAIN IN MY HEAD
GET BETTER BRAIN
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DC!

I am currently in our nation's capital, meeting with President-elect Barack Obama...


...and eating tacos with him. Mmm, delicious tacos.

No, I kid, although President-elect Obama is never far from my mind, because I'm a "cock-eyed optimist," in the immortal words of Rogers and Hammerstein, and I go all weak in the knees over the prospect of a president whose policies aren't a slap in the face to all I hold dear. Hurray!

Actually, I'm in DC for the JASC fall meeting awesome amazing great so cool!

Because of various transportation difficulties (from hell's heart I stab at thee, Delta Airlines!!!), I arrived a full sixteen hours later than I should have. While this was enormously terrible in every way and a huge waste of time for me and others, it had the advantage of allowing my favorite pastime--clueless Rachel wandering!

But Rachel, most of your time is spent in clueless wandering! How is this any different?

I will tell you!

I am sessile. I am a deeply rooted plant. I walk the same paths every day; I stay in my room, my building, and my city. This is partly by choice and partly by habit, but either way, I end up spending most of my time in one place. This feeds my (usually unfulfilled) wanderlust.

So when I arrived in DC, without a map, without even the vaguest knowledge of the layout of the city or its subway, I was filled with totally childish glee. I loved figuring out how the ticket machines in the metro worked--and the metro stations in DC are so gorgeous and modernist and freaky--wandering around and figuring out the layout of the streets--tracking down some wifi to make this post--awesome, all of it.

Here's to a weekend of adventure!
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Boston JASC Reunion, Part 1

What's this I see?


Five JASCers in one room! Yoshi with his Pooh-san towel, Aya in her pajamas, Sunyoung smiling like a goddess, Nancy as our gracious host, and me as the photographer.


After moving in and making a big mess out of Nancy's room...


... we had a late dinner of Japanese food (because Yoshi reaaally wanted rice!).


It's been so wonderful to see everyone--Yoshi's crazy stories about JASC behind the scenes, talking with Aya, Sunyoung's laughter. It's like JASC again, running around getting lost and being inefficient and talking about love and staying up late and getting up early.


More updates on Boston JASC reunion soon!

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Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens

I am occasionally (often) seized with the desire to abandon intellectual pretensions and be utterly frivolous. So here is a non-exhaustive list of things that make me happy for no particular reason:

--moving walkways in airports
--the way valve oil smells and the squeaky sound it makes when it gets on my fingers
--the cheerful sounds google and skype make when someone chats me
--sunshine in my room in the afternoon
--lady police officers
--doing everyday things with my eyes closed
--licking old-fashioned stamps
--watching other people play video games
--grapefruit
--writing with colorful pens
--being barefoot in inappropriate places
--street and subway musicians
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"Talent"; or, "Why Japan?"

Extra points for anyone who can recognize any of the authors in the photographs in this post! As a hint, I have named each file after a work of theirs... in Japanese, for extra challenge.

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Seamus Heaney recently visited our school, and our campus weekly magazine interviewed him. A question and answer that I found particularly interesting:

FM: With [the Nobel Prize in Literature], you join the ranks of fellow Irishmen William Butler Yeats and George Bernard Shaw. What do you think is behind Ireland's rich literary tradition?

SH: I don't know th
e answer to that, really. I don't believe that sociological conditions produce the oddity of talent. Talent is unpredictable. But it does seem to flourish when societies are in search of definition.

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It's a bit frightening to think of it this way, but I've been studying Japanese literature (with varying degrees of interest and competence) for nearly eight years now, all of high school and all of college. The process has been at times bumpy but always fascinating and always rewarding, and I like to think that I've come out on the other end of this journey a better person in some ways.

While I hate to admit it, from a normal person's point of view, Japanese literature is a somewhat obscure topic. And the natural question that people ask when it is revealed that I spend so much time studying something so weird and useless is:

"Why Japan?"

I don't have a good scholarly answer for this, but I have a sincere answer. (Sincerity is a rather rare commodity around here, so please appreciate this.)

Japan had an experience of modernity so unusual as to deserve to be called unique. Far more than Western nations, Japan had a visceral sense of modernity and modern society coming from outside, being something alien to itself. The process of modernizing was so drastically accelerated that it produced vast, weird fractures in people's understanding of the world around them. This is why so much early Japanese literature is obsessively concerned with tradition and modernity.

The Japanese experience of the social forces that affected the rest of the developed world during the 20th century was also wildly exaggerated--socialist labor movements--an incredibly brilliant flowering of popular rights, democracy, and liberalism--militarism and fascism--being both perpetrator and victim of some of the most horrific military actions of the modern world--the experience of being an occupied nation--the most sudden and dramatic economic growth imaginable--the unbelievable pace of technological development--extreme urban spaces--and now a crippling demographic transition (少子高齢化).

This is so simplistic and reductive that I'm almost embarrassed to admit to it, but this really is what I think--that the experiences of modernity and postmodernity have been somehow traumatic for people in developed nations. Our perception of our current experience as somehow severed from our past and the sinister ways we view modern life (pervasive fear and demonization of urban space and technology) suggest, simply put, that we are not comfortable in the world we live in.

To me, that is the power of Japanese literature. The Japanese historical experience of all of these changes and dislocations and traumas has been almost uniformly extreme, and so Japanese literature bears the scars of modernity very clearly. More than most other "national literatures" (I recognize that the term is deeply problematic, forgive me), Japanese literature touches directly on the issues that are the most painful and intimate for, I think, everyone living in a developed nation today. We are all in, as Heaney said, "societies in search of definition."

I have always wondered if I would be just as fulfilled studying, say, Irish literature, or African literature, or even Chinese literature. Does it matter that it's Japan?--yes, yes, it decisively does. Choosing Japanese literature was not arbitrary for me. I won't say it answers my questions, but it asks the same questions as I do.
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Translation

Today I happened upon an example of inexcusably and hilariously poor translation. I recognize that translating poetry is very difficult, and this is an admirable effort presumably by a very accomplished and scholarly gentleman, but still--no excuses. Take a gander at this excerpt:

Our high-pooped barge glides by the marge
Of tributary flume:
Breasting the maze of floods we raise
A crest of creamy spume.
--from "Lines on the Autumn Wind," Liu Che, translator (fortunately) unknown to me

Even ignoring its awkward archaicism and near-incomprehensibility, this is a prime example of tone-deaf English. "high-pooped"?? "creamy spume"?!?!
For shame, translator, for shame.

(tee hee. 'creamy spume')